Today you are 8 years old! Time has flown in such a short time. Also, life has changed much for you :). One day maybe you will see the value I see in Ryan’s gift :). See, Ryan worked very hard on his comic book!! He did everything in there:). You are so excited to read it! Your eyes focus so well on his work! You know you are different but that what makes you, you! We wouldn’t change anything. To see you conquer your difficulties inspires me so much! I know you have freedom when you read the comic book! I also know you’ll have some more freedom in a more structure routine ( which is hard for me). We all love you so much!! you have a beautiful soul and spirit. You are kind, bright, gentle and fierce when you want to be!
YOU see when I was growing up papa Tonello was very strict. So strict that I nor my siblings had much freedom. All though the boys got away with more than us girls. You see I didn’t have much room to breath and move. So, for me as an adult to bring a more structure routine brings up bad memories for me. But, I know this will help you with your Autism. In this you find your freedom and I my healing journey continues. It really threw me through a loop to see you thrive in a solid structure. To me freedom is being able to move and not worry about a set time frame. Your dad and I are free spirits haha. For you though, it flares up your sensory, tics and OCD. So, for you structure is your freedom for a bit. No, we will not go over board like papa Tonello. You are a child and I want you to have your childhood. I can barley remember mine since I blocked out a lot of the bad.
Yes, I am rebuilding my relationship with Nana aka my mom. But, i am still weary when papa is around because he needs control…he’s narcissistic. We want you to grow and learn it is okay to have fun and still have a set schedule. Where for me it was do or you’ll be damned. I want you and your sister Iva to know you are loved and cherished. There is no one in the whole world like you!!! God made you special!!! He will put people in your life to guide you along. One of those families is Joe, Ania and Ryan Fiduccia :). Joe has Optimus Prime :). Ryan is one of your beauties :). Hopefully one day you two can meet and become friends! Ania and I are sisters 🙂 not blood related but by soul :). Ania and Joe are beautiful parents and their son Ryan is sweet :). You and Ryan have much to learn but God gave you both great help!! Even sissy aka Iva has a lot to learn as well. We will guide and help you the best you can. We love you all
Mommy ( Sarah Ann Tonello-Seiler)
Daddy ( Micah John Seiler)