The pandemic of 2020. COVID-19. In one word…you SUCK!! I’m sure for anyone reading this, a simple keyword search on COVID will give you plenty of information on it. So I won’t bore you there. But it was responsible for the shut down of an entire country, and the demise of any plans for success we had all year.  Schools were closed and then went to hybrid (some days in session, other days virtual). Who knows when that’ll go back to normal. All of our businesses shut down literally overnight. All of my shows and planned appearances with Optimus were cancelled. The entire thing put a major financial strain on us. The only thing keeping us afloat is the puny unemployment, food stamps, health insurance assistance, and Ania’s wine thing. Which she has absolutely rocked at.

It’s been frustrating for me because I want to get out an make more money. I want to get out of this debt I created, and 2020 was poised to be a great opportunity for us. Lots of potential. Lots of possibilities. Then overnight…nothing. I can’t tell you how frustrating it is now to have an end in sight with this thing. The stupid government no doubt has a lot to do with it as they play their political games in an election year btw Trump vs Biden…one of the worst elections in history that really brought out the negative side of humanity. It’s disgusting really. But that’s another post.

On the plus side, if there is one, we tried to start many new traditions as a family. We do restaurant night usually once a week where I pretend to be a restaurant person serving the family. Nana comes over usually for that. We learned how to make a lot of the things we would get at restaurants like Olive Garden breadsticks. We are spending a TON of time together in the same house. Which has its ups and downs. For me personally, I get very upset at the “zero-to-90 anger’ Ryan portrays sometimes. Like just now I asked him for an idea of when he’ll be ready to go to Nanas. And he flips out because he’s getting ‘stressed’ while trying to figure out a picture he’s taking. And all I’m trying to do is ask him for an idea so we can give nana the courtesy of planning properly with whatever food she is making. And it’s moment like this that drive me insane. Because now inevitably Ania will side with him and find fault in what I asked him. All because I wanted to be respectful of the window of time we gave nana. Shit like this I can not stand. And it just keeps going all year.

I get it. We are all frustrated. And I blame fucking COVID. I fucking hate you COVID. I hate what you’ve done to our family and this world. I HATE YOU