Sept 2018…an email I sent to Ania on our anniversary…18 months after we crumbled…
Celebrating 13 years…wow. 13 years since we 1st said those magic. 19 years later and here we are with a ‘mini family’ of our own. 19 years ago, I never envisioned ending up where we are. I never pictured our home, our lifestyle, our hardships, our little human, my ‘issues’, our family drama, our debts, our successes, our (your) ‘emotions’. I had dreams and hopes and looked forward to living a comfortable life with a woman who treated me with the respect I felt I deserved. 19 years ago, I had no idea that sexy young girl with the awesome boobs and beautiful smile would be YOU.
I agree with what you said on your note – I believe we are 2 souls destined to be with one another; destined to complete one another. Together we are unstoppable. Together we can (and have already done) anything we imagine. It’s time to once again realize those dreams. It’s time to become that power couple everyone else looks at with awe, wondering what the hell we’re doing to make all this work.
I have regrets. Lots of them. But one thing I don’t regret is asking you to marry me. Because you are a true gem, and someone who would lay down her life for me…for our family. You, Ania, are my one true love. And I am so glad I said “I do” on this day so long ago. I am sorry I have not lived up to your expectations all the time. I am sorry I buckled under the pressure of life. I am sorry I failed you. Everyday that passes I try to make it up to you in some way, be it more love, more food, more alone time, more help with work, or more effort into getting us out of debt. I hope you see what I’ve been doing, and I hope you still look at me with love and not disgust.
I hope…you are still grateful for saying “I do”. I LOVE YOU!!!!